'I wish you well on this trip to find yourself..'

Wish You Well - Thousand Foot Krutch

I think the band Thousand Foot Krutch said it best when they wrote the song 'Wish You Well' with the following lyrics: “sometimes life feels just like rain, cause you never know when it’s gonna fall down on you.” It just feels like it makes a lot of sense. From feeling a little down, [and who doesn’t from time to time, am I right?] to not understanding what’s going to happen next- sometimes, it’s okay to say “I’m lost.” ! Allow me to go a step or two further, and use my own life experience: 

[-deep breath- this is gonna feel like a long one..]

when I was younger, I was a fairly happy kid; despite only having three friends and often times than not being bullied. [kids can be fucking rude, man..] But one thing that used to bother me was that I felt that I was destined to be alone forever - even if girls had cooties and were gross at the frail age of 10, I still desperately wished I could find someone who understood me. 

accurate depiction of me as a child..

let us rewind all the way back to grade 9 - with me pictured below [so roughly 9 years ago]; I met my first official girlfriend, [who will be unnamed for obvious reasons] and she quickly became my favorite person in the world. I put everything I thought you were supposed to do in a relationship [what I believed at that age, anyway]: flowers on first date, daily reminders that she was my favorite person, y’know — quirky things that are supposed to remind the person how much you care. Unfortunately, this ‘relationship’ was short lived; lasting less than a month, and that fucking hurt. I had convinced myself that I was right all along: I’m weird, and no one will EVER like the strange kid. why would they? I’m just the weirdo with the deaf parents.

[there's a reason I'm glad high school is over : #blunderyears?]

[Note: I could go on and explain all my other hardships as a now 22 year old male, and how I failed maintaining many relationships until now, but I’ll save you the reading.]

that’s what I take from ‘Wish You Well’ by Thousand Foot Krutch; that sometimes, life does weird things; from being bullied, to now having a good handful of friends I trust with my life. I wouldn’t have it any other way — I love each and every one of you. thanks for putting up with me during the tough times.

Stephanie & I when we first got together: this is the girl I've longed for all my life.

 Let’s look at present day now: I’ve been engaged to a wonderful girl for two years, and we’re going on our fifth year together! She’s everything I’ve ever wanted in a significant other: she’s beautiful, smart, funny, she even deals with my DVD Collection!! [I have a whopping 215 DVDs and counting! — and that’s even not including her DVDs!] We’re set to officially get married on October 31, 2015 : which proves that my younger self is lying prick.. but I guess all our younger selves are in one way or another. So what’s the point I’m getting at? don’t you ever let life overrun your thoughts: it’s just not worth it. Life is 10 times, if not 100 times, better than it seems.

The world is just trying to do what it knows best and honestly, that’s what makes it so fucking beautiful.

I just wanted to let this out — in front of me, in words: not just clouded up in my head. it’s not exactly perfectly formatted, but technically; it’s not supposed to be, these are my thoughts after all.

to those who took the time, thanks for reading.

— Warren.

a more recent picture of me.